before i was a mom..

Before I was a Mom…

I made and ate hot meals.

I had unstained clothing.

I had quiet conversations on the phone.

Before I was Mom…

I had never been puked on,

Pooped on,

Spat on,

Chewed on,

Peed on,

Or pinched by tiny fingers.

Before I was a Mom…

I had complete control of my mind,

My thoughts.

My body,

And my time.

I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom…

I never held down a screaming child,

So that doctors could do tests,

Or give shots.

I never looked into teary eyes and cried.

I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.

I never sat up late hours at night

Watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mom…

I never held a sleeping baby just because.

I didn’t want to put it down.

I never felt my heart break into a million pieces.

When I couldn’t stop the hurt.

I never knew that I could love someone so much.

I never knew I would love being a Mom.

Before I was a Mom…

I didn’t know the feeling of having my heart outside my body.

I didn’t know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby.

I didn’t know that bond between a mother and her child.

I didn’t know that something so small

Could make me feel so important.

Before I was a Mom…

I had never risen in the middle of the night.

Every 10 minutes to make sure all was alright.

I had never known the warmth,

The joy,

The love,

The heartache,

The wonderment,

Or the satisfaction of being a Mom

thanks Rafique Zaquan for all the special feelings you bring me into..

just love to be your mom..

love u baby..