tengah hari tadi balik rumah kejap, amek Rafique sebab his babysitter kena balik kampung urgent >> ayah akak tu meninggal..takziah to Kak Ani and her family..
masa dia call i suruh amek Rafique tu, dia kata ayah dia tenat..tapi masa i sampai umah dia, dah bercucuran air mata, n terus peluk i..saying that her father had passed away..sungguh, i will feel awkward in such situation..tak tahu nak respond ape..sebab i ni memang spesies tak reti nak pujuk or cool off orang2..(tapi kalau i merajuk, orang tak pujuk tau pulak nak saket hati!!) tapi kesian sangat laa coz she and her siblings planned nak balik kampung Jumaat ni..just another 2 days kan..mesti terkilan sangat tak dapat jumpa for the last time..
and i definitely understand the situation...
coz i pun tak dapat tengok langsung wajah my younger brother yang meninggal on August 2006..rupanya dah 5 tahun he passed away..how time flies..bila ingat pasal Asyraf (his name) i felt soooooo stupid for not being aware of his long WEIRD message...
one fine night he texted me..masa tu i kat UPM, 2nd year of my degree..
"Abg Ngah (dia laa tu) kan sebenarnya sayang sangat kat family kita semua..kalau esok awak call mama, cakap kat mama abg ngah mintak maaf sangat2 sebab selalu susahkan hati mama..susahkan hati abah..nanti awak cakap kat mama tau..cakap kat semua orang dalam family kita, saya sayang sangat semua orang..saya janji lepas ni tak susahkan hati sape2 dah.."
n my reply??
"bagus laa kalau tak nak susahkan hati semua orang..tapi...ni buang tebiat ey??call laa mama sendiri.." << read this in as irritating intonation as you can!!
kejam kan ada kakak camni???
that message was sent just one day before he met with the accident!!!
dan yang paling menyakitkan adalah dia meninggal on Sunday night..dan kitorang hanya tahu tentang tu on Tuesday morning!!2 hari ambil masa untuk call the victim's family???AND I AM THE FIRST PERSON TO KNOW THE NEWS AS THE POLICE READ THE MESSAGE THAT HE TEXTED ME!!!!!!
alasan polis lambat bagitau???IC dia alamat umah lama kitorang..telefon dia takde bateri, tak boleh on!!!like WTF??? ko charge baterry for the whole day ke hari Isnin tu baru dapat on handphone dia???
and because he have internal bleeding which did not stop (one of his tulang rusuk broken, tercucuk jantung and his heart puncture), dia dah siap2 dimandikan kat hospital and kafankan..we all tak boleh bukak and tengok (even his face) sebab takut kalau2 ada darah, nanti kena mandikan lagi...=(
for god sake i really do miss him..walaupun kitorang ni macam anjing ngan kucing..dari kecik memang suka sangat bertekak, bergaduh..sebab kitorang berdua je yang umur rapat2..2 years gap..dengan adik yang no3, gap 7 tahun..
Al-fatihah to arwah Asyraf Azinuddin bin Zakaria..
semoga roh beliau dicucuri rahmat dan di tempatkan dikalangan orang beriman..
amin..